My Poems

2006-05-25T01:42:00.000-07:00

Solitude

The rain is falling,
gently and softly.
The sounds of nature,
creating music of its own uniqueness.
What have I missed?
Love?
Happiness?
Laughter?
Harmony?
What have I really missed?

The rain is now pouring,
hard and loud.
Thunderous.
Angry.
I wandered on,
Through the moments of solitude.
Staring up to the dark sky,
I wondered.
How did I end up like this?
When will this solitude end?
When will I allow myself to love again?
I hate being alone
I don't want to be alone...
But...
A second chance seems so far away...
So far away...
There's no turning back to the past,
No chance for amendments.

The rain is ebbing...
It is falling gently and softly again.
And the sounds of nature fades away.
The sky brightens, but my heart does not.
Stoned, my heart is now,
And I shall move on... Deeper.
Is this solitude?
No.
I am merely free...

2006-01-19T02:27:00.000-08:00

Endless Struggle

What has come over me?
Longing to say the words meant for you,
and yet not utter a single sound.
Wanting to care for you,
and yet not making a single move.
What has come over me?
To wish you were here with me,
and yet disappear when you are around.
I dare not look deep into your eyes,
for fear that it may all come to nothing.
What has come over me?
Sleepless nights, I pondered.
I feel lost, without you.
I feel despair, without you.
I long to see you.
Hold you.
Feel you.
But I dare not.
What has come over me?
Cursed by the lack of courage,
I falter...
And slip back into the darkness.
The endless dark,
where no one knows.
My dark secret.
Damn this curse...
I wish for the strength,
to look at you once more,
to tell you what I have always wanted to tell you...
I love the funny way you tie your hair,
the way you laugh,
and the way you smile.
Most of all,
I love you.
I wish for the strength,
to ask for your hand,
to protect you,
and to be there if you need me.
But I guess...
I may never get across the wall of fear.
With my dreams,
remaining just like a dream.
What has come over me???
Please...
Please save me....
I love you.

2005-07-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

You

You have always been on my mind.
Every single moment,
For as long as I remember.
I missed your smile.
I missed your laughter.
I missed your voice.
I missed you.
You...
You are the voice of my soul,
The light of my life.
My center.
You made me whole.
Now, as we part,
I feel empty, a bleak world stand before me.
Sadness threatens me forever,
Kept at bay by my longing for you.
Barely. You...
I can’t bear to see you leave,
For when you did, I felt alone.
No one to share my joys and sorrows,
no one to share my ambitions and dreams.
Staring up into the night sky,
I wonder where you are now.
I long to see you again once more,
To hear you.
I missed You.

2005-07-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

Separation

Staring deep into the night sky, I pondered.
I regretted.
Cried.
Shouting out my anguish,
Drowning myself in sorrow, I wondered.
Why?
Why did it end?
Over before it even begun.
Am I a failure?
I pondered.
Hopeless tears, hopeless dreams, I smile not.
Shattered love, a broken heart, I laugh not.
Why?
You and me,
A curse or a blessing?
Once connected in heart and soul,
Now a severed bond.
To be friends again,
To bring myself to treat you as a friend again,
For all that has happened between us,
Hard it is, I found out.
Why...?
A chance that never blossomed,
A fate that turned tail...
Why...?
I pondered...
And I still don't know why...

2005-07-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

Longing

I long for you,
deep inside my heart.
Each and every day,
each and every passing moment.
Not once my mind wandered away from you,
commiting myself into remembering every part of you.
Such a pain...
To know you are there, but helpless about it.
Sorrow fills my heart with each passing day, as I long for you.
Longing...
Wishing...
Desiring...
I longed for you to be here-with me.
I wished for you to be happy-with me.
I desired, Only you.
None came true,
For we never came together.
Why...?
In the deep sea of regrets,
hope dwindles. Fades.
Flunged into the open sea, couldn't care less anymore.
No more hope.
No more regrets.
Sadness.
Nostalgy.
Longing.
I still regret...

2005-07-30T08:35:00.000-07:00

Love At First Sight

Love is blind.
Love is selfish.
Love is senseless.
Love is silly.
Mind not these trivial matters.
To fall in deeply,
is everybody's dream.
Love grows.
Blossoms.
Embraces.
Love fades.
Withers.
Die away.
Love is all.
To love, is to hate.
For in hating, you find loving as well.
For everything exists with opposites.
Easy it is, to fall in love.
Difficult it is, to let go.
Love comes, love goes.
Love chooses people, or people choose love?
What is your choice?
Do we have a choice?
Do we?

2005-07-30T08:33:00.000-07:00

Unifying Force

My light, my soul, the dark.
My strength, my weakness.
My curse.
Curse not.
Hope not.
Nothing cares.
I care.
To eternalty,
To End.
What's real?
What's not?
The truth.
A lie?
A student, a teacher.
Student, teacher.
Teacher, student.
All are one.
The universe.
Is one.

2005-07-30T08:32:00.000-07:00

Dark Void

Hark my call.
Full of despair.
Of denial.
Swept away by the harricane,
no light can pass.
Drowning in my own tears,
Blinded by the void.
Alone.
Drowning.
A fate worse than death,
a life worse than failure.
Hear my cries.
Of anguish, none can comprehend.
Deep down in the deep void of darkness,
I found the power of acting without hope.
A void of shattered hopes and dreams,
a broken man I am.
Despair, anguish, dissapointment,
My friends from now on.
The power that drives me on.
The power of the void.
Hark my call.
The last call you will ever hear.

2005-07-30T08:30:00.000-07:00

Whispering Tales

Whispering tales...
Tales of hopes and dreams.
Of Sorrow and Sadness.
Of Love.
And Hate.
None shall pass.
Who ever does?
Caught in the web of its arms,
we wander about.
Aimlessly.
Like a story of 2 wandering souls,
paths are crossed.
We shared joys, sorrows,
sadness and hopes.
As one.
Never to part.
You and me,
we are all each and every other thing.
Time is meaningless, for everything, is nothing.
And nothing, is everything.
Destiny, is an irony.
Within it paths are crossed, at the same time paths are broken.
This, is my pain. My sorrow.
Me? I am glad our paths crossed.
Now that it is broken, our lives must go on.
We become memories of each other,
treasured beyond all treasures.
Feel it we must, let go we must.
For what will be, will always be.
Our story, this will be.
Wandering souls, wandering paths.
Tales of the past.
Whispering tales...